❥INTO ETERNITY .
Spending half of my lifetime indulging in work and just work... I've came to realized that there are more important things in my life that I should spend my time with, as once I missed or lost it, I will never have another chance to turn back the clock. As such, I've learnt to treasure every moment with them.... Thank you my beloved Grandma, Daddy and Daisy.... you've made me come to know the mistakes I've made before. Though I can never see, talk or hug you now, but I know, you've never left me, just that you've "migrated to Heaven" and are watching over me from above now...
1) All my loved ones to stay healthy
My Wishlist for Bella
1) To Stay healthy
In Loving Memories of my 2 Beloveds who left me 26/12/2008
In Loving Memories of my Beloved Daddy who left me 17/03/2010
Dedicated To Late Daisy - My Dearest
Cute Little Bella - My Baby Princess
Tuesday, December 31, 2013, 10:24 AM
The year 2013 is coming to a closure now... this year has been a year with lots of ups and downs, uncertainty, of coz there's also happy and sad moment.
Moving forward, there's lots of thing I want to do for 2014, its time to map it up now...
Goodbye 2013, Welcome to a brand new 2014!
Thursday, December 26, 2013, 10:14 AM
In loving memories
5 years=1825 days of missing the both of you，my beloved Grandma and Daisy.
A letter to HeavenLord, thank you for carrying me through my darkest moments in my life 5 years ago, when I knew I would have collapsed without you. It's never easy at all to lose two beloved close family members on the same day (ESP when I was their caregivers). Can't describe the pain, it's a double pain for me.
God is good. HE granted me my wish, I kept the both of them with me on my birthday and Christmas in 2008 before they finally took their long rest.
Today marks the 5th year which my beloved grandma and Daisy have migrated to Heaven. Seeing the two of you go was the most painful times in my life.I remembered 5 years back on 26/12 morning, I visited grandma in the hospital who was then in coma, there was a voice deep down my heart telling me she's leaving me. I remembered breaking down into tears badly and climbing up her bed hugging her, never knew that was a farewell hug. Grandma left me quietly in the afternoon at 330pm, not wanting me to see her take her last breathe on earth. Grandma left me....
We went back to the animal hospital to be with Daisy, who was at her last stage of liver cancer. That week she's was very ill too, not only liver cancer worsen, her other organs like kidney were giving way, I could not even feed her 1ml of water on Christmas Day. On the night after grandma left us, we went back to the animal hospital to keep Daisy company, she was so delighted to see us. We saw her smile, wagging of tail and even managed to stand up and walked towards me (she was unable to stand up for a week then). I was opening my arms to embrace her, but when she reached me, she gave me a final smile, took her last breathe and collapsed into my arms. A moment I can never forget at all. Daisy left me...
Time passed, pain healed, but memories of them never fade coz I truly love and miss them dearly.
God, please watch over them now till I meet them again at due time. Thank you Lord for giving me the opportunity to offer my love to both of my dearest late family members.
Wednesday, December 25, 2013, 12:00 AM
The meaning of Christmas is not about partying, sharing of gifts, but it was the day Our Saviour was born, to save us!
Have a Blessed Christmas!
Monday, December 23, 2013, 6:14 PM
Work Balance - is it worth to work till died?! Thats Rubbish!
The advertising industry really draws lots of energy away, as such, being in it, we need to constantly remind ourselves, apart from passion, its just a job, just do our best and know when to draw a line.
Its really sad to see such a talented young person died due to overwork, its not worth.
Here's my little baby as at 22.12.2013, she's not feeling very well and just want to be carried....
she's just so sweetie..... love her loads!
Like Owner, Like Pet (my baby)
A Broken Relationship now a Long Lasting Special Friendship
20 years of friendship with 2 years of relationship
= Long lasting friendship without boundaries
Many said when a couple goes on separate ways, they can never be friends. I do agree that at the beginning its tough, but with a strong foundation in friendship, when time healed the broken pain, the friendship will grow stronger as that was the person whom you've been very close with.
He was the guy I almost married at 28, but things didn't worked out ... I've gone through a very long, tough and pain time to get over, we've lost touch for a while and I almost could not face him as I could not forget him, spent almost 10 years to totally let go and today, we're still that close, like buddies.
I know we love each other lots - but a different kind of love, a love that's very strong and long lasting... thank you for being part of my life, I know, there's long journey together, as our friendship foundation is that strong.
Love, in a very different manner, a kind of special love with strong foundation.
Thank you , Buddy... you know who you are!
Thank you for cooking for me on my birthday - a very special gift!
Friday, December 20, 2013, 12:02 AM
Happy Birthday to myself
Its been 5 years since I do not really want to celebrate birthday and Christmas - coz December became a very heavy and sad month for me since 2008 as I lost my dear Grandma and Daisy. Also, in the same year, I lost someone whom I have been with 5 years, the person whom have celebrated my birthdays with me for years....
Birthdays became a lonely day for me, I kept myself away this day coz it has a different meaning to me since 2008.
Happy Birthday to myself... hoping the coming year will be a much happier, fruitful and warming year before my next birthday....
Wednesday, December 18, 2013, 8:20 PM
No one knows how lost and helpless I am. I've been doing things and care for others half my life, but now, my heart is cold and lonely.
Tuesday, December 17, 2013, 10:56 AM
December... again proven as a sad month, goodbye my dear 4th Uncle
Just a while ago, I've just received a call from my mom crying on the phone...
She has just gotten news that my late daddy's elder brother, my 4th uncle, has just passed away yesterday. He has been a very happy man and a very good brother to my dad, we've last met him in October, during one of my nephew's wedding. We never knew that was a parting meet-up.
Life is so unpredictable... treasure every moment with your loved ones.... and live with no regrets...
To my dear 4th Uncle... you will be remembered....
The Art of Loving
Some people you just can't hold on to them, not because they are not cut for you, but because you are never in their hearts.
Being in love is not measure by how good you are, but what the other party feels about you.
For a person who treasures you, you are flawless, but if the person dislikes you, nothing that you do will be right and appreciated.
As such, why waste time on a love that's not worth it coz only those who loves and treasures you, deserves your love.
Friday, December 13, 2013, 2:41 PM
Tired and drained...just need to revive my energy....
SOLVIL ET TITUS 鐵達時 - Time is Love
Love this TV Commercial
(2013)SOLVIL ET TITUS 鐵達時 - Time is Love(時間樹-16：9)
HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13TH
I remembered many years ago in another organisation which I've worked with, every this day, many of my colleagues will take leave to avoid situations happening at work. Till now, I still cannot understand why...
so... chio .... lets think positive - that good and happy things will happen on this special day!
HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13TH
Thursday, December 12, 2013, 2:38 PM
How can I not give my whole heart to this little gal - Bella
Wednesday, December 11, 2013, 6:51 PM
No reasons.... just think they look nice.... hahahaha
Naughty yet Cute
Saw this series of illustration by chance and the creator of these is really very creative....
Images - courtesy from WB
Tuesday, December 10, 2013, 3:30 PM
Night-blooming Cereus - Transient Beauty
In summary, beautiful moments may not last forever, treasure and catch hold of the moments beyond its gone.....
Monday, December 9, 2013, 1:43 PM
First riot in Singapore after 40 years of peace
I'm sure many of us here in Singapore must be shocked to see this... a place where there used to be peace and harmony is now going violent.... we really need to educate our foreign immigrants....
Photo - courtesy from Straits Times Online
Finally there's some Christmas feel in the office now!!!
Thursday, December 5, 2013, 10:50 AM
An unsent Brithday Greeting
Happy Birthday to someone whom has "moved out" of my life for the past 4 over years.
We've lost touch and see no reasons to stay in touch too... as we have moved on with our own lives. This is the day we've celebrated together for 5 years while together, so.... just wanna wish you Happy Birthday, as a gesture of remembrance.
A very simple unsent greeting....
Wednesday, December 4, 2013, 12:32 PM
PissedThe most tiring thing at work is to deal with a person that's mentally "unstable" - we're like headless chickens running around....
This person changes his mind everyday, he blames others and scolds others for no reasons.... worst is, he is so old school thinking....
Tuesday, December 3, 2013, 7:28 PM
Plumeria flower 雞蛋花
Flower language : perfection, the coming together of all good things.
花語： 優美純潔， 孕育新望
Mom fell - 2nd time in 3 weeks
Woke up at about 4am this morning by a Big Bang outside my room, jumped off bed and when I opened the door saw my mom lying flat on her back just outside my room door!
Think she felt giddy while trying to go to the washroom and kicked onto something and loss balance. With a swollen head and some minor bruises on arms and legs, most importantly she's in a state of shock. Applied ice on her head and treated the bruises, now observing her, hope she's ok.
It's scary.... took a urgent day off work to keep her company and observe her...
Praying hard she won't fall again....
Spoiled Rotten Princess ~ Bella!
Yes... I am saying about this spoiled princess!
Monday, December 2, 2013, 1:55 PM
Beautiful piano piece by Yiruma - Love Me
Music - a universal language...
相信在我们人生的路上总有着好几首歌能代表你当时的心情， 我有好多， 你呢？
Do you have any songs that you could connect with during different timing of your life?
Care to share?
Winter Morning ...
Finally having bit of a feel of winter this morning with wet weather.... not too bad....
Sunday, December 1, 2013, 8:03 AM
It's time of the year again...
I've used to love this month lots. It's a month of celebrations! Christmas, my birthday etc... I've always been looking forward to this time of the year.
However, since 5 years back, this month has a very different meaning to me, it's just not about having fun, it's about Life. 2008 December marked the most depressing time in my life, it was like roller coaster - up and down, coz grandma and Daisy were critically ill in the hospitals - grandma fell and went into coma and Daisy's liver cancer worsened.
Can you imagine how I felt when on my birthday morning, Daisy collapsed in my arms, I almost lost her? We had to dash her to the hospital and I was using my hands to keep "pumping" her heart for blood to flow, watching her pale gums closely while in the cab to the hospital? We had to do an immediate blood transfusion to my little one. My hands went numb... Same time, grandma went into a coma two days before. I "celebrated" my day with so much fear worrying that I may loose both of them on that day, I could only pray and pray... What's the feeling of cutting the birthday cake in a hospital when it was meant to be celebrated with my two loved ones (actually three, just that the third one, he is no longer part of my life now), it's not sweet but bitter with loads of tears.
God answered my prayers and I received the greatest gifts in my life that year - gift of life to my two beloved. I had them be with me to "celebrate" my day and Christmas, and I knew, that's the last celebration they could with me. I've held them very closely and I thank God for this special gift.
On Boxing Day, 26th December 2008, I lost the two of them, one in the afternoon, one in the night. Till now, I still do not know how I pulled through, the kind of sadness and pain was beyond words. My world shattered and went into a state of darkness. Losing them was like suddenly burdens off my shoulders, I could not find my balance coz it was like losing the floats in my life.
Thank God for seeing me through this time, HE lift me up and carried me to walk through this dark valley. I've grieved very badly, really very bad. Everything I see then, was grey, and I tear a lot coz I was feeling that indescribable pain.
From then, December has a very different meaning to me, not about celebration in terms of partying, having fun etc, I've no longer wanted to celebrate anymore, coz to me, thus is a memorable month, a month that I witness miracles happening and a month that I've lost my beloved ones. Therefore, it's a month that I will keep low profile as spend "personal time" in remembrance of them - Grandma and Daisy.