Spending half of my lifetime indulging in work and just work... I've came to realized that there are more important things in my life that I should spend my time with, as once I missed or lost it, I will never have another chance to turn back the clock. As such, I've learnt to treasure every moment with them.... Thank you my beloved Grandma, Daddy and Daisy.... you've made me come to know the mistakes I've made before. Though I can never see, talk or hug you now, but I know, you've never left me, just that you've "migrated to Heaven" and are watching over me from above now...
1) All my loved ones to stay healthy
2) Able to take holiday breaks every half yearly
3) To stay happy and positive
4) Buy my own house
5) Set up my own business
6) To do voluntary work for the Elderly
1) To Stay healthy
2) Cheerful
3) Skin no more itchy
4) Fur longer so that can tie nice nice top-knots
5) Mummy will buy me nice top ribbons and bows
6) A stroller
7) Lose weight (both me and Bella)
8) More quality time together
Not sure if I am going thru a stage of Depression - which I am praying against it... I jsut feel so demoralised and upset with things that happening around me - my only joy is weekends when I have my full attention with Bella and mum....
I felt so lonely and frustrated and at many times, some people just got on my nerves that I have the "image" in my mind that I am going to "skin this person alive". I get aggitated when I see the person's face and even the name pisses me off - am I going crazy... Oh my..... my heart is just filled with hatred against this person... guess the person must have irritated me so much.... Have never had this hatred before ... I dunno how....
Weekend was a good break... else, i think I will breakdown mentally....
Now... I have been taking deep breathe and telling myself - its ok... bought myself a pack of tea bags called "Happy Moods"... hope that'll help....
Am I being mentally tortured? I dunno.....
Labels: am i going mad?