Spending half of my lifetime indulging in work and just work... I've came to realized that there are more important things in life that once lost, will not turn back. I've learnt to treasure every moment with them.... *Thank you Grandma.. thank you Daisy.... I know you are watching over me from Heaven now...

1) All my loved ones to be healthy
2) Go for a holiday
3) Buy my own house
4) Set up my own business
5) Doing voluntary work for the Elderly

1) To Stay healthy
2) Cheerful
3) Skin no more itchy
4) Fur longer so that can tie nice nice top-knots
5) Mummy will buy me nice top ribbons and bows
6) A stroller
7) Lose weight (both me and Bella)

July 2009
August 2009
November 2009
December 2009

Skinny.Alkaline(:
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Haiz... yesterday was really a Monday Blue day... my little baby gal LS 4 times in the morning and vommitted twice... mum called to say that shes worried, baby is very lethargic and refuses to eat...

My heart was not in office the whole of yesterday coz was worrying about Bella. Brought her to see Dr Miles immediately after work.... thank God its just the beginning of a stomach flu. Brave little Bella guai guai take the jab... Dr Miles commented that shes such a pretty little babe... hahahaha... coz shes on her pink pokka dot "I Love shih tzu" dress with a complimenting bow....

Guess what... Bella is now 5.7kg!!! OMG! I was so worried that Dr Miles wanna put her on diet.. heng... he said was ok....

Bella came home, drank a lot of water and guai guai take her chicken for dinner and off she zzzz..... wake up this morning manjaing... want to be carried...

Misses her so much while at work today....

Baby Bella... must get well soon ok??? else mommie will be worried hor....

God gal....

Today marks the 11th month since Grandma and Daisy left me.... time flies its coming to a year soon.....

Have come to terms that they've left me - but memories of them stays with me forever....

Was telling mum that during my last trip to BKK while on flight - I fell asleep and I dreamt of grandma and Daisy - I saw their smiling face and peaceful look, walking on the white clouds... its just so real and clear. Mum said - that means they are in Heaven. I told me, I have always said they are in Heaven and watching over us....

To my dearest Grandma and Daisy - I'll love you forever and ever and you stay in my heart.... misses both of you dearly....

I have never felt so peaceful till this last few months (since April)... released a big "burden" - too much of stress and has gotten me into depression.... and importantly... goto know a group of new frens that shares same interest and able to talk "heart to heart"... which I have never done that for a long long time...


Its the peace at heart that i long for and having Bella into my life really has brightened up my days.... memories of Grandma and Daisy stays within my heart forever.....

Soon.... its gonna be a year since they left me......

heeeeee.... just taking a look at the date... wow.... me last blog was in 16/8/09.... so long already hor.... no wonder i kana "warning" from blue and ela..... heeeee..

so many things happened over the last few months.... let me slowly slowly recap.....


See my new post la

Really praying hard for my property business... hoping to go full swing as I really enjoy this and also I like the flexible time - just not the flexible income la.... hoping to have at least 5 months of salary stand by and I can go full swing without worries... at least family is being taken care...

Looking forward to explore new project launches...never tried before.... hope able to get few buyers for Trivista.... will I????


Haiz... its sunday nite... Monday back to boring work again.... very dishearten with that... working hard on properties... no choice... age is catching up.....

Its been such a long time since i last update my blog.... usual excuse... busy la... working like a slave... haiz....

Finally long weekend and this will be Bella's first National Day.... hahaha.... she took the National Pledge at 8.22pm - declaring she a Singaporean!!!! Last year this time, I celebrated this day with Grandma and Daisy, this year, they are no longer with me, watching the parade from Heaven....

My wish is recession will be over soon - economy will recover and for myself - my ultimate wish to go into full time property business ...and also some online business.

Glad that I'm finally able to help my buyer to find their desired house, praying hard that they will make the offer tomorrow.... next will be working on other buyers.... and hope to have units to sell to...

Stay believe that with hard work... there will be returns....

Jia you Jia You!!!!

Dear Grandma Marie and Daisy,

Today marks the 7th month since both of you left me, every month at the hour that both of you left me, I will look up the sky to "see" you, coz I know you are watching me from Heaven.

I missed both of you dearly.... just lost of words to describe the feeling, its painful.

I have never ever regretted "wasting" my time in looking after grandma, indeed, I have learnt a lot and have grew to love taking care of you Grandma.... I used to be upset and angry when you scold me or nag at me... but now... how i wish I could turn back the clock to hear you again... I miss wearing diapers/ bathing you/ cutting nails for you/ pushing you on your wheelchair etc. remember we have spent a lot of real good times together, I can never forget your childlike smile whenever you are happy... Grandma... I've never tasted your cooking for at least 10 years and really miss that... but I know... I will never be able to have that chance anymore, could only put that in my memories. My biggest regret is you went into comma without leaving us a word and I was not able to stay with you by your side when you left us, grandma, pls forgive me. I will never forget what you have thought me and I have promised you on the morning before you left us, that I will remember you and love you forever... Grandma, do watch over us from Heaven...

Darling Daisy.... my sweetie pie... jie-jie miss you so much.....I have kept all your belongings with me as I can't part them... I've even kept the medicine that you took.... what I am left with are just all these and memories of you.... did you hear my prayer earlier at the hour you left me? Daisy gal... I can never ever forget the scene when you gave me a smile and collapse in my arms on 26/12 at 10.30pm. My whole world shattered.... I lost grandma and you both on the same day! This is just too much for me to take.... I never dare imagine this will happen..... but girlie... I know you have been a brave warrior and you have been a fighter, you've tried your best to fight for every single breathe you have.... my wonderful pal for 14 years... you have a part in my heart and with you leaving me, its just like a part of my heart being removed. You've came to me when you are just 7 1/2 weeks old and spent 14 years with me.... how I wish I'll have another 14 years with you.... Remember... Bella mei mei is not to replace you, shes like your little sister and I truly believe God has sent her to me to heal my wound....shes looking more like you now.... jie-jie loves both Daisy and Bella, both of you are my princess and I will never leave you.

I pray that both of you walk close to God in Heaven, have peace and watch over all of us in the family..... Love you Grandma ... Love you Daisy....

Till we meet again in Heaven in God's time.


Jacq