Spending half of my lifetime indulging in work and just work... I've came to realized that there are more important things in my life that I should spend my time with, as once I missed or lost it, I will never have another chance to turn back the clock. As such, I've learnt to treasure every moment with them.... Thank you my beloved Grandma, Daddy and Daisy.... you've made me come to know the mistakes I've made before. Though I can never see, talk or hug you now, but I know, you've never left me, just that you've "migrated to Heaven" and are watching over me from above now...
1) All my loved ones to stay healthy
2) Able to take holiday breaks every half yearly
3) To stay happy and positive
4) Buy my own house
5) Set up my own business
6) To do voluntary work for the Elderly
1) To Stay healthy
2) Cheerful
3) Skin no more itchy
4) Fur longer so that can tie nice nice top-knots
5) Mummy will buy me nice top ribbons and bows
6) A stroller
7) Lose weight (both me and Bella)
8) More quality time together
We've visited dad at Mandai twice and each time, mum and me broke into tears. Little Bella uses her little paw to touch daddy's picture coz she remembers him dearly....
Last Saturday, we went over to Mandai to pay respect to both Grandma and Dad... we were prepared for a big jam due to Chinese Ching Ming, however, both of them have blessed us with a smooth and clear journey - we were not caught by the jam.
Thought I have been strong... but realized that deep down I am so weak... I am feeling the "after-effect"... have been feeling depress and lost lately. I am missing dad more and more. Kept thinking of his face, his smile and the way he walks, I blame myself for not spending enough time with him, talking to him, bringing him out for meals... I should have done it.. now... I have no more chance to do it.
I have been daddy's gal since young and he doted me a lot, in fact, he was the one that loves me most and able to tolerate my nonsense, especially when I throw my tantrums. Dad has never cane me before, only once or twice he slapped me when I was young - due to me being mischeivious. The person whom loves me most, has left me...
I regretted not taking up my Chinese Calligraphy lessons from him seriously since young and thought I was so happy having not to do it anymore after my primary school education. Now, I saw Dad's achievements in this area + all the stuffs he left for us, I should have been more serious about it. Dad's last piece of Chinese Calligraphy writing for me was the word "Gong Xi Fai Cai", when I have asked him to write for me to place the bowl where I store the Mandarin Oranges during CNY.
Dad left us with many Chines poems books and some of the writings he has done - we will keep that with us... thats what he has left for us now....
Dad - I miss you badly.....
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