Spending half of my lifetime indulging in work and just work... I've came to realized that there are more important things in my life that I should spend my time with, as once I missed or lost it, I will never have another chance to turn back the clock. As such, I've learnt to treasure every moment with them.... Thank you my beloved Grandma, Daddy and Daisy.... you've made me come to know the mistakes I've made before. Though I can never see, talk or hug you now, but I know, you've never left me, just that you've "migrated to Heaven" and are watching over me from above now...
1) All my loved ones to stay healthy
2) Able to take holiday breaks every half yearly
3) To stay happy and positive
4) Buy my own house
5) Set up my own business
6) To do voluntary work for the Elderly
1) To Stay healthy
2) Cheerful
3) Skin no more itchy
4) Fur longer so that can tie nice nice top-knots
5) Mummy will buy me nice top ribbons and bows
6) A stroller
7) Lose weight (both me and Bella)
8) More quality time together
They have giving him the last jab to boost his heart beat and that all they could do. All I could describe then was, we were helpless... its like pronouncing his death, just waiting for time.
Dad's brothers and sisters rushed to hospital and all were shakened by this sudden news and even dad's elderly brother (my 3rd uncle), came to see his younger brother for the last time. We were all filled with tears... I prayed and prayed and prayed.... asking God not to take my Dad away... but deep down, I know, I cannot go against God's will.
Every minute seems hard to pass and we stayed through the night in the hospital....
My elder brother, whom have had conflicts with dad for the past 30 years, he hated dad and never spoken to him for many years, came and broke down in tears. The finally reconciled at this very last lap in dad's life. Mom and me, broke into tears seeing the breaking of the knot between the two.
We talk and spoke to dad, reassuring him that we will be strong and carry on with life, at one moment, we saw tears flowing from his eyes. I know, dad can't bear to leave us too....
We stayed by his side, holding him, crying and saw him took his very last breathe on earth... I can never ever forget this pain in seeing a loved one departing.... can never forget this moment.
Dad... mom, Kor, Bella and me miss you so much....
Labels: Miss you Daddy
When reached, saw Dad in comma and all hooked up, doctor just told us that his heartbeat stopped suddenly during his sleep, no one knows how long did it stopped....
After that, everything just went out of control - he went into ICU, life is like "dependent" on a life supporting machine. Our hearbeat beats everytime we hear the beeping sound from the devices....
Updates that we got never seems to be good from then on.... I was told, I mayh be loosing him....
This was the day I had a year ago....
Labels: a unforgettable day
So much things happened to my life, happy and sad moments. Time to hold on and time to let go.
In few days time, dad has left us a year - 365 days; 8760 hours. I still have not really believe he is really gone though I have constantly reminded myself its time to let go.
With dad's leaving, I view life very very different, its not just about me, me and me; but my family.
I have already turned from being hurt till I ignore coz its just making me feel more not worth.....